A tale of Phantom

 It is said that there's a stranger lurks in the mists of forgotten lands, well a while ago, maybe quite a long ago, I couldn't properly recall, could be yesterday or could be millennia prior, I met a stranger on the path that's long been forbidden, or perhaps it was just a dream, but it felt real, I'd argue that it felt more real than reality itself, either way, I remember vividly that I traced footsteps that which were imprinted on the soil stiffer than a frozen clay yet still moist, I felt the breeze coming out from the underneath my footsteps as I went along the path that never was, but those breezes didn't stop, they gradually turned into exhales of millions of souls buried under that blessed yet cursed walkway to the heavens up above or hell down below, I still remember vividly where I was supposed to be going, yet I still couldn't recall, there was also a strange hue on the sky up above, it surely couldn't be heaven, heaven isn't supposed to look like this, or does it? did I misunderstand what the countless books and prophets told us? did I do something wrong? where was I going? that's when I saw him, or it? I couldn't, it sure looked like a guy in his early 20s but his features were quite exaggerated, she looked pretty, quite seductively, I was sure that it's a woman but I could swear she was a man when I glanced at her for the first time, her features shifted and adjusted in front of me yet I couldn't pinpoint how, as if she knows what I am and what I want, I saw her getting more and more perfect by every passing second, second? could be millennia, but who cares, they were barely any different at this point, millennia felt like seconds and vice versa as if time isn't linear in this land of the unknown, well saying time isn't linear would be an understatement as I am sure it didn't even exist there, you see everything at once, yet nothing at all, you experience time like normal but also like paranormal, I wish I could describe how it was like in mare words but that would be quite unjust of me to do so, I- I am sorry, this is rediculous, I should've thought it through more, I don't expect you to understand where I am coming from, but does it even matter? do I even matter? you might say yes, but I quite disagree, disagree with whoever or whatever that will see this, are you one of us? it's okay even if you're not, please stay, it's been quite lonely out here, she left me too you know, turns out it was just my vivid imagination, I don't know really, I still see her in the corner of my eyes, but that's about it, I tried to go ahead on this road but the steps are fading, she leaves me when I move ahead, I don't think I wanna keep going, I might stay right here, it's cozy here, took me a time to get comfortable but I think this might just be it, at least it's bearable in her presence, I hope it's not my head playing tricks on me, just like it does all the time when I am not paying attention, no, I swear it's real, I can feel her breathe against my skin, I can touch her, I can feel her, yes I am gonna stay, guess this will be my departure, heaven isn't anything like what you know, neither does hell, god sure works in mysterious ways, she calms me, or he, I couldn't tell anymore, its all one in the same, everything is same, I felt all the emotions there were to be felt, I thought every single thought there was to be thought, I don't think I'll miss out on anything, she told me she will leave eventually, but by then it will be alright, I will be alright, this is the path of the damned that I walked, I will see where it leads me next, until then I will stay right here, I hope this make it to you, well even it don't I am glad I did this, I must go, I've already delayed for too long, may you do whatever you feel right in your heart, my best wishes are with you, your life long acquaintance that never was.

Regards,
A lost wanderer